Posted by steve on December 17, 19101 at 18:53:40:
In Reply to: You might be spending to much time in the museum posted by Jon Van Harpen on December 11, 19101 at 10:52:54:
Got a wierd question? Say it again. [Jon Van Harpen & T.J.Gaffney, message 150]
Is it your guilty conciousness pursuing you day and night around the Great Lakes, and following you around having feelings of regret, because you raped a shipwreck? Or because you spent to much time in the "new-church-cult" for the "dead-place" museum, where corpses, or peases of wreck corpses came to rest, and here fevereshly worshipped, and protected by the new found faith, as promoted by the new ministers, in this giant air-conditioned church-building? Have you paid your subject tribute yieth? Or are you, the accomodation party?
And now you cannot sleep nights, having "seen" visions in the fog again this year, and asking weird questions? Even seeing things coming out of the fog during the day? You got a problem, diver.
You said you "seen again" and believed, then you ask if "anybody else" likewise has seen the same like visions you described so clearly, to the point of identifying the "ghost Ship" and naming the shipwreck illusion by name?
The sins of rape will haunt you.....
Our former existance was one of enslavement due to those responses that trapped us between two wrong alternatives. We say we love our way of life, or that we love others, in order to hide from admitting our addiction, dependency, enslavement.
The ghost voices you hear are straight from Hades. They have been guiding you to your present dilemma, but you believed them to be originating within yourself. You may be getting the old pitch: "You deserve better than this.... what are you suffering for"? The voices may exhort you to do away with yourself, promising rest and peace. They have always lied. Follow those voices no more. You believed THEM only because your pride could not accept the truth.
Reality does not speak aloud, but it shines a light on every error and shows the disparity between the familiar wrong and the unknown right. It is a gentle pressure moving you from evil to good.
There is but one true repentance. As you grow in consciousness, you may see clearly what you are required to give up. At that moment, you stand upon the threshold of eternal life or death. The first truth you will see is the truth about your own errors and errors of others. Wait now.... watch your thoughts and memories as they come into your mind. The wrong deeds you once believed to be right will pain your conscience, for you both allowed them and justified them. Seeing them again will bring a pain called guilt.
Good! Don't be upset. Bear the disconfort without trying to remedy it. Know that you cannot change what you have become in the past. Be sorry. Desire to be better. It was the selfish, blaming, excuse-making, lie-loving, easily-deceived pride that allowed the problem to grow up in you. It was being angry at everything that got in your way that made matters still worse - as if pride, aided by anger and fear, could solve problems! It was the egocentric struggle to ease or escape the pain of conscience that prevented the true pain from becoming a correction. It was fighting evil with the illusion that it made you good to do so, that actually made you worse. But in excusing yourself and trying to rid yourself of blame, you gave power to the lie. You should look upon irrational behaviour as a kind father looks on naughty children - emotionaly detached, unmoved, and yet compassionate - concerned, where compassion is fitting, but not worried. This is the way you should react in any situation that involves the unkind actions of others. You must also overlook praise when its aim is to tempt you, to excite and exalt your pride. Both criticism and praise can be used to fatten us for the kill, but only if we respond. Do not give up principles for any material gain or credit, for anything you might gain in that way will eventually take possession of you.
steve